Note: This was rewritten with the help of ChatGpt, but I wrote the original texts.
What my targeting has been like
It's hard to say when psychotronic weapons started being used. Apparently, it was intentionally made clear to me around 2020 that they were in use (I had read about them before, but didn’t believe it). At that time, there were very intense attack sessions, and many of their capabilities were revealed to me.
But in hindsight, many of the strange things I experienced since around 2015 would apparently be explained by them.
I went through what seemed to be a mild form of gangstalking, which usually lasted a couple of months at a time since 2007. There was always at least a year between episodes.
Around 2015, it suddenly became much more intense. That was right after I had issues with coworkers. Then came the red cars (something my father had mentioned back in 2007, calling it “crazy talk”), nonstop phone calls from all over the country, and all sorts of directed speech. These were usually tied to specific events.
In 2020, I had another problem with coworkers. This time, I was tortured — I thought I would die.
They didn’t leave me alone until I became violent and started carrying a knife. After that, the interferences became milder, both 'mundane' and psychotronic. But they were still extremely disruptive to my life. The most intense interventions were:
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I was forced to sleep for over 16 hours a day, and felt sleepy for the rest of the day, for about two weeks after going through any very stressful event.
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I experienced spasms and sensations in different areas of my face depending on what I was saying. It seemed like some kind of positive punishment or reinforcement.
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I was prevented from pursuing specific high-paying careers by severe mouth spasms whenever I tried to study. As soon as I began organizing myself, the spasms would start — and they would stop immediately when I gave up.
The interferences today are milder, but still terrible and absurd. One particularly absurd instance is that I experience all sorts of facial spasms and sensations when thinking about the death of a certain person — the combination, in terms of classical conditioning, seems to push the idea that the person didn’t actually die. I go through similar things when certain false narratives are being pushed. This has always been present — attempts to force you to believe that things which aren’t happening are actually happening, or the inverse.
These interferences usually follow specific themes, all drawn from my personal life.
It is all very strange indeed. But I'm sure of what I lived, even if there have been false alarms here and there.
What I think about being a target
I'm sad about the situation — not only because of everything I’ve lived through, or the fact that I can’t talk about these deeply important parts of my life with most people, but especially because I have no idea what the future holds — what it all meant, or if it’s ever going to end.
Most of the people who could potentially help us — doctors, engineers, police — dismiss our claims as delusional.
I’ve always been a decent person.
I’ve invested a lot of energy, time, and money trying to defend myself. I don’t have a solution, but I’ve made progress.
Either way, I believe not fighting is not an option.
What it seems to be about
My main theory about what they’ve been doing is that they are developing techniques — using their classified technology along with more mundane assets — to:
- Mostly - Subliminal interrogation, neutralization and coercive conditioning.
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Change someone’s opinion on a subject (for example, altering a judgment or whether a narrative is perceived as true or false)
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Modify someone’s behavior
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Create or eliminate specific desires or aversions
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Hinder or stimulate a particular action or course of action
This aligns with what Colonel John B. Alexander described regarding electronic behavior modification (in his MKULTRA 2.0), as well as with the allegations made by other targets. It helps explain why we are dehumanized — and why so many people are willing to collaborate and keep it quiet.
It also matches the Russian objectives in the development of psychotronic technologies: the “psycho-correction” of individuals with so-called behavioral problems, and their broader use in psychological operations (psyops).
And also matches many TI testimonies. Many (even though not most) of them admittedly have addictions - most commonly drug addiction. Jean Guerrero's (award winner journalist) stated her father is a TI and that he speculated he was targeted for being addicted to crack cocaine (even though he thought this choice was because nobody would believe him, and not because it was a behavior modification experiment). There is a youtube channel by the name Jamie Tall which has collections of TI testimonies - many of them revolve around drug use (specially meth), and it veiledly supports the targeting - suggesting it helped them to get rid of their addictions. Another example from the channel was Alexis, a woman who was trapped in kind of "Sadomasochist sex cult" and got rid of it - and this was somehow tied with the gangstalking and freemasons (they frequently pop up as suspects) - she claimed she was told she 'was being watched for years and it was sad where she had fallen to'(as if they were trying to rescue her). On the sex related behavior modification, an american trans woman by the name Nicole Erica have been describing her attacks on social networks, and they are always synchronized (like usually happens with any TI - its frequently synchronized, but what its synchronized to changes from target to target) with her female fantasies - which clearly indicates aversion therapy. Also on the sexual theme, there is a disproportional (comparing to the general population) amount of TIs claimed to be accused of being pedophiles (although these statements have been dramatically decreasing along the years). One TI managed to film random strangers casually dropping the word on him while passing by on the street, but the video was taken down. That's a very sensitive subject - we don't know whether or not the accusations are true or not, but, usually just being accused of being a pedophile is something that might represent a serious risk to someone. This theme is one of the few which could explain the dehumanization the operators are willing to inflict on some targets suffer in the process and the willingness of assets to collaborate. Back to the addiction theme - Roy Eacups, one of the very few TI leadership who is most likely genuine, admittedly was a compulsive gambler - and stopped being one after a traumatic experience tied to the targeting. Please note that even though some testimonies tie the targeting with positive behavior modification, we don't have any evidence that they are usually positive, or that this is the objective. On the contrary - even in cases where at least part of targeting apparently was linked to some behavioral problem, other parts of it were not. Not only many TI's state their targeting doesn't seem to have any coherent purpose - certain actions, behaviors or opinions being consistently hindered or stimulated without the whole having any apparent meaning. Also, many TI state the target continued even after what was apparently the 'target behavior' ceased to exist. What remains a constant among all of this is the practice is steering people - as no clear pattern is apparent, its natural to guess they are just refining their methods (the 'compulsions' theme might be of special interest just because changing a compulsion is a specially hard task, which the methods could be tested to their limits).
Recalling some information on MKULTRA (this is all documented):
- It was about interrogation, discrediting and behavior modification.
- Although most of the discussion was around the use of substance, it was correctly pointed by independent independent journalists from Truth Stream Media that MKULTRA involved research with radiation and that this was subtly suppressed in its "revelation". And there is a number of facts that suggest this was carried out since (the document below includes one mention of radiation and two mentions of device - although its not clear what these devices might be).
- People who couldn't fight back ("mental patients, prisoners, drug addicts") were selected as test subjects.
- The final phase was planned to use unwitting test subjects in their day-to-day lives.
- The testing would be carried on by the police (specifically the Narcotics Bureau).
- The operation would be highly compartmentalized. and there would be no records of the planning and approval of the tests programs.
- It was important to test people of all profiles - social classes, ethnicities. And they did it.
- The unwitting targets were to be "cultivated".
- In the event of a test subjects correctly identify what was happening with the help of independent professionals, it would be requested cooperation of local authorities to suppress information.
"In the 1950's and early 1960's, the agency gave mind-altering drugs to hundreds of unsuspecting Americans in an effort to explore the possibilities of controlling human consciousness. Many of the human guinea pigs were mental patients, prisoners, drug addicts and prostitutes -- ''people who could not fight back,'' as one agency officer put it.". Tim Weiner .March 10, 1999. For the New York Time.
The items below are quoted from a CIA document for its director named "Report of Inspection of MKULTRA"m in 26 July 1963.
5. a. Over the ten year life of the program many additional avenues for the control of human behavior have been designated by the TSD management as the appropriate to investigation under the MKULTRA charter, including radiation, electro-shock, various fields of psychology, psychiatry, sociology, anthropology and graphology, harassment substances and paramilitary devices and materials.
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6. The research and development of material capable of producing behavioral or psychological changes in humans is now performed within a highly elaborated and stabilized MKULTRA structure.
10. The final phase of testing of MKULTRA materials involves their application to unwitting subjects in normal life settings. It was noted earlier that the capabilities of MK ULTRA substances to produce disabling or discrediting effects or to increase e the effectiveness of interrogation of hostile subjects cannot be established solely through testing on volunteer populations. Reaction and attribution patterns are clearly affected when the testing is conducted in an atmosphere of
confidence under skilled medical supervision.
11. TSD, therefore, entered into an informal arrangement with certain cleared and witting individuals of the Bureau of Narcotics in 1955 which provided for the release of MKULTRA materials for such testing as such individuals deemed desirable and feasible. (...) The sum of $10.000 has been provided annually to each of the two projects to cover the cost of cultivation of targets and maintenance of a safehouse in each area for the observation of the effects of the substances on selected test individuals.
12. The particular advantage of these arrangements with the bureau of narcotics officials has been that the test subjects could be sought and cultivated within the setting of narcotics control. Some members have been informers or members of suspect criminal elements from whom the Bureau has obtained results of operational value through the tests.Oh the other hand, the effectiveness of substances at individuals of all social levels, high and low, native american and foreign, is of great significance and the testing has been done on a variety of individuals within these categories.
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17. The final stage of covert testing of material on unwitting subjects is clearly the most sensitive aspect of MKULTRA. No effective cover story appears to be available. TSD officials state that the responsibility for covert testing is transferred to the Bureau of Narcotic. Yet they predict that the Chief of the bureau would disclaim any knowledge of the activity. Present practice is to maintain no recording of the planning and approval of test programs.
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18. Final phase testing of MKULTRA substances or devices on unwitting subjects is recognized to be an activity of genuine importance to some but not all MKULTRA products. Termination of such testing would have some, bun an essentially indeterminate, effect on the development of operational capability in this field. Of more critical significance, however, is the risk of serious damage to the Agency in the event of compromise of the true nature of this activity. As now performed under the Bureau of Narcotics auspices, non-Agency personnel are necessarily fully witting of the nature and significance of their assignments, and of the sponsorship of CIA. Compromise of this information intentionally or unwittingly by these individuals at some time in the future is a hazard that cannot be ruled out. A test subject may on some occasion in the future correctly attribute the cause of his reaction and secure independent professional medical assistance in identifying the exact nature of the substance employed, and by whom. An extreme reaction to a test substance could lead to a Bureau Request for cooperation form local authorities in suppressing the information of the situation. This would in turn broaden the circle of individuals who possess at least circumstantial evidence of the nature of the activity. Weighing possible benefits of such testing against the risks of compromise and resulting damage to CIA has led the inspector general to recommend the termination of this phase of the MKULTRA project.
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Some of the people I interacted with seemed to know, at least partially, what was going on. Something interesting is that, almost always, people selected to make more direct references to the monitoring are lowlifes according to the 'lowlife' flags in my geographical region - outfit, physical appearance, way of speech and behave. Exactly the kind of person who would accept do something they don't even know what means to a stranger in exchange for a few bucks.
I don’t know the extent of compartmentalization within these operations
On the TI community
It's very hard to find someone willing to actually do something about it. Based on my experience, a rough estimate would be that 90% of the profiles are fake — whether they’re perpetrators or just random trolls — 9.5% can’t communicate coherently or collaborate in a constructive way, and the remaining 0.5% are either too scared to engage with or leave the community as soon as the targeting eases.
I’ve spoken to a few real TIs who seemed capable of working on this, but they either stopped responding without any explanation after a few months, or chose unproductive ways to fight.
Suggested attitude
I don’t see any hope unless we try to fight back. That means we need to create some openness around the issue.
You don’t have to tell everyone everything — but you can choose who to talk to, and what to share.
Make sure your life is in order — especially your health and finances.
Stay calm, and keep a positive mindset. Try to find other reasonable TIs and build something.